Monday, February 16, 2009

I Fear...

Fear. I've been carrying this fear with me when i was small. Its not so much of a big deal until recently...

I've been having the intention to join my colleagues to Thailand this coming March, but my main concern is, *ahem* I cant swim. Hardly do i ever touch on water, except taking a shower. How am i going to survive if im in the middle of the ocean? Ya, laugh all you want. I've been expecting these as well since i post this entry.

I know its a shame for those who live in this island and know nothing about swimming. Called myself a beach boy, indeed, im a beach boy who runs on the beach... not swimming in the sea.

Was it the fear i had when i was small? Its so real that im unable to justify if its a personal experience or was it just another nightmare. The image of me drowning keeps appear before me. Feelings that are unable to describe. Afraid...

I persisted in acting like a naive child
...
I know that i cant be too dependant
Afraid that you would spoil me...


One need to grow up. About time to start walking now... If not now, then when? Sooner or later, even if i cant swim, at least i need to stay alive. No more of made fairy tale of mermaid saving me when im drown. Its been a burden for lifting the fear on my shoulder for so long now. Need to let go. Need to find the courage, else Koh Rok no more within my sight.

Ah Dann got to face his fear... rang wo men cheng zhe yang guang~~

15 comments:

Stella Lee said...

hey, we'll be there, we will "jiu ju nei", ok? we got expert - fish n mao le, wat do u scare of?

Shu said...

Dear, I can give you free swimming lessons if you want. =x

PhoeNieTam said...

--------- advertisement --------
Miao Miao express swimming course

Fee:
1. guy got xiong mao - FOC
2. guy without xiong mao - RM5/hr
3. girl - rm10/hr


hurry register...
First come first serve...

Got Miao Miao, No Dry Duck

Dann said...

Stella: Thing should be okay ler. Afraid that it might be a little wasted since snorkeling dealt with water.

Shu: Would be glad to. ^^

Phoenie: Wow, an advertisement? Thanks for the offer, but i got a free teacher to teach me leh. I wonder, would your Sam Keok Mao Kung Fu works on me? LOL.

Whats is Got Miao Miao, No Dry Duck?

PhoeNieTam said...

wOw...i really got students out there...one day, ask them prove to you...

Dry Duck describes those who dunno how to swim...

Got Miao Miao, No Dry Duck
As long as got me to teach swimming, then everyone can swim well lo...
(haha...i jz cincai put a slogan =P )

Dann said...

o.O
Wah AhMiao, your slogan really take.
Got Miao Miao, No Dry Duck
Now i look like a dry duck... *quack quack*

PhoeNieTam said...

hi,yellow dry duck
(cz u also Digi user)

confessions of a medical student said...

overcome your fear...
you can do it, Dann!!
USH!

ah hoo said...

dont worry...ah hoo is beside u....
take ah!

PhoeNieTam said...

sHHhhhh...
only now i know ah hoo is gay de...

(dann be careful lo...
you are on the chopping board)

Dann said...

ShinYin & EngHoo: Sure do. Will overcome it. Hahaa. Take.

Phoenie: Wah!!! Die liau, me and EngHoo gonna be same room while in Thailand... *amen*

PhoeNieTam said...

wahaha...he is always besides you...
so really wish you good luck and din *ahem* with him lo... *amen*

Dann said...

Phoenie: haha...wat is the *ahem*?
i am a very naive boy lo...


If he really *ahem*, i guess we'll need a obituary column in the local papers for him. LOL. We say like he's so bad. Whahahaaa... XD

PhoeNieTam said...

wOw...fast learner also...good student o...

haha...where got bad...gay is not his fault...only *ahem* between 2 guys is a criminal...i hope i will not see you guys face in one of the newspaper's column....that why i ask you be careful...how good heart i am... *amen*

Dann said...

Phoenie: If he happened to see these comments, we all gonna end up in tombstone. LOL. *amen*